My Journey to Find Light

Strength. Finding your inner strength. I believe that strength has a strong correlation to light and I believe that all of us have an inner light that shines in us. It is only when that light is shining bright that you feel the most like yourself. When the light is dark, you start to feel like you're losing a sense of who you are and that everything is spiraling out of control. When your inner light is dark you may find that you are a more negative person and that you tend to get annoyed with people more, or feel the feelings of hate and disgust towards people without truly having a valid reason. Without even realizing it, when your inner light is dark you are in a more negative place. I can say all of this because I have experienced this first hand. My inner light has been dark for a few years now and I didn't even realize it. I didn't realize it until one day when I was curled up in a ball on the floor feeling like everything around me was falling apart. A song from Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat popped into my head and everything made sense. "... may I return, to the beginning, the light is dimming and the dream is too. The world and I, we are still waiting. Still hesitating. Any dream will do." It was those words that made me realize that I wanted more and that I deserved more. I remember speaking those words and crying, not because I was sad, but because in that moment I had lit the flame again and I started to feel like my inner light was shining brighter then it had in a long time. Sometimes, you have to return to the beginning and just start a new. I wanted to share this moment not to boast about how strong and great I feel, but to just put it out there, just in case there is someone going through something similar. We are all on this earth to help one another and we are all in this wild and crazy life together. It is important that when we learn personal life lessons that we find ways to get our stories out there so we can perhaps help someone else that is suffering. I have had a lot of people ask me where my strength comes from and how I am doing so well... all I can say to them is that my inner light has been finally re lit and it is shining brighter than ever. Once you can get that inner light to shine brightly, nothing is more powerful than that.