I am Woman hear me ROAR

Well, here I am again. I have been absent for some time. My life has changed drastically in the last month and weirdly I am the happiest I have been. I have been wanting to write something, I just haven't been sure what to say. This morning my Mom sent me a quote that really spoke to me and I wanted to share it on here:

Once you start to speak, people will yell at you. They will interrupt you, put you down and suggest it's personal. And the world won't end. And the speaking will get easier and easier. And you find you have fallen in love with your own vision, which you may never have realized you had. And you will lose some friends and lovers, and realize you don't miss them. And new ones will find you and cherish you. And you will still flirt and paint your names, dress yo and party, because, as I think Emma Goldman said, 'If I can't dance, I don't want to be part of your revolution.' And at last you'll know with surpassing certainty that only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth. And that is not speaking."

-Audre Lorde

This pretty much sums it all up. I recently found a children's book that was given to me by our family friend, David Cooper. In the book he had written, "Amanda, may you always be free to dance the dance that lives within you." That is exactly it.. I have to feel free to dance the dance that lives within me, in my soul. 

In life it is so easy to lose a sense of who you are and what you want to become. We can get boggled down with worry and fear. I was finding myself going along in life trying to control every little thing that came my way. I was so afraid of change that I decided that it was my responsibility to never let change come my way. I became a control freak without even realizing it. Then, one day, my life totally changed. In one instant the life that I knew just changed. It was out of my control. It took me a few weeks to realize that change happens. It is inevitable. But, it is how we deal with the change that affects our future. We can't say to ourselves, "why me" because change is a positive thing. Change can break you from a bad habit, change can open doors up for you that you never even knew was possible. Change can open your eyes to the life you are meant to live. So, here I am... living a life with a whole new outlook. 

I am very happy. I am very content with the road I am on right now and I know that I owe it all to my Nanny and my Grandpa George. They saw from above that something was not quite right and they had to do something big so that I would understand why I needed to go down this new road. 

It is all in divine order, and there is always something bigger at work. Have faith, trust in the changes and just enjoy the ride! Oh, and sing your life, above all else, take it and sing it!