Lessons Learned

      Well it is Christmas Eve, and here I sit waiting for my family to arrive for our annual Holiday gathering. Today has been all about tradition, well normally isn't that what the Holidays are all about? Tradition? In the past, I would try to relive the same Christmas Eve over and over again. I would get so upset when something would fall out of place or wouldn't feel right. Today, I feel my growth more than ever. I have noticed that I just have learned to go with the flow of things, and you know what? I have had the best day so far. The thing is, you can't plan anything. You can't plan who will be a constant and who will be a distant memory in your life.. you can hope, but you can't plan.
     There is a quote that my Mom shared with me today that really spoke true to my heart.

"Nothing ever goes away, until it has taught us what we need to know."
-Chodron

 

             This quote only speaks truth. I have had to remind myself lately that we are all here on this earth to learn lessons.. whether they be big or small, we are all here to learn something. Some may need to learn patience, some fideltity and some trust. I know that thinking this way has helped me get through this tough time in my life. I believe that we have contracts with people and when the contract comes to an end, then it is time to continue on YOUR path and find new contracts and lessons to learn. I truly know that I have grown so much these past few months alone, and am a better person because of the time I spent in the dark. Just like Katy Perry says in the song Firework,

"after a hurricaine comes a rainbow, maybe a reason why all the doors are closed, so you can open one that leads you to the perfect road."

              Here's what I plan to do, I plan to coninue on my path. I plan on contiuning to be the strong woman that I have discovered. I plan on accepting whatever changes come my way because this is all part of a bigger plan. I plan on trusting that the lessons I learn, are only helping me prepel forward into the life that I deserve to live.
               I am thankful for the lessons I have learned so far and for the distant memories in my life because without them, I would not be the strong person I am today.

              Merry Christmas. Treasure the moments you share today and tomorrow, because you can't always count on the traditions to last.