inhale… exhale… inhale….

      I'm staring at this blank computer screen. I know I need to write. I know that I need to get my thoughts out. It has been awhile since I have been able to write a blog post. Sometimes my thoughts just escape me and they only stay for a few moments. Life is ever changing, my thoughts are ever changing and I am trying to keep up. What is a challenge in my life right now?… hmm.. let's see. I think one of my biggest challenges is having patience and being ok with things not going quite like I had planned them to go. I also have been trying to let go of my feelings towards others. I have found that I am getting too caught up in annoyances and being bothered with how people handle certain situations. I mean, of course I think that I would handle any situation perfectly… don't we all have that feeling. We watch someone make certain decisions and we think to ourselves, "oh, I would do this like this, not this!" We always think that we could do a better job. I am so guilty of this trait. I am always saying to myself, "why can't they just do it this way! Why do they have to be so lame." That's right.. I said lame. :) 

      It's really hard to let go of how you think certain things should be and just trust that what is actually happening is the way it is meant to be. I have been getting so annoyed and bothered lately by the way certain people are living their lives, and then I have to remind myself that I am not them, and they are on their own journey, and they are here on this earth to make their own decisions and live there own life, just like I am. I am going to really work harder at respecting others and I am going to try my hardest to not get as annoyed with people!

      I have been teaching a lot this summer and it has been wonderful. My students, no matter the age,  always teach me something about myself. This summer of teaching has been all about patience and putting the trust within myself to teach whatever I needed to teach my students to serve their highest good. With Young REP coming to an end with these next couple weeks and Young Actors Studio ending last weekend, I find myself grateful for the lessons that all my students taught me. I have watched each student, from my 5 year olds to 14 year olds, develop confidence within themselves. 

     Today, I was lucky enough to sit in on some "mock auditions" for one of the Young REP classes. I sat there beaming from ear to ear because I saw so much growth in each student. These students walked into their "audition" with so much confidence and they were so willing to do anything we asked of them. I was remembering how nervous they were on the first day and how confusing it all seemed to them. I watched them grow… in just these six weeks, I have watched each student blossom and grow into wonderfully strong human beings. THAT is what this is all about. For all the times I left class feeling frustrated and lost, today made it all worth it because I saw that each student had actually grown and taken something positive away with them. 

      This was a great reminder to me today because I have been feeling too judgmental lately of how others were living their lives. I was reminded today that it doesn't really matter how others live their lives or what choices they make.  If you don't get the part you wanted in the show, it doesn't matter… it's just a show! If you don't get to go on that trip that you have been planning, that's ok! There's a reason you weren't meant to go! If you weren't meant to be with someone that you thought you would be with, that's ok! You weren't meant to be with them and someone really awesome is just around the corner waiting for you. We have to stop judging others so much and start living OUR own individual lives! 

    There's a reason for everything, and it all happens for a reason. It sounds cliche, but it is so true. It all happens for a reason. You just have to worry about inhaling and exhaling.. the rest will take care of itself. 

     My goal for the upcoming months is focusing on myself first and foremost and stop caring so much about what happens around me. 

     LET BE.