The Moment

     I am currently on the train on my way to New York. I was so sad to say goodbye to Boston and to my friend Jessica! I had the best time there. I also was able to have a moment of clarity. I finally had the moment I have been looking for. This moment that I needed could not have been found at home, it could not have been found going on a casual walk around the block, it could not be found in a Doctors office talking to a therapist, this moment had to be found by me in a new place. I needed to follow my instincts to get to this moment and I needed to trust in the process and have patience. I would like to share this part of my journey on here. I found it very uplifting and it played a huge role in my journey thus far.
     I was in the Common in Boston walking around, the Common is a beautiful area with different paths and beautiful scenery to look at as you walk by. I was walking down one of the paths, the snow was on the ground and it was just a little before sunset. I had some time before I needed to be anywhere, so I just decided to explore a little bit. When I was on one of the paths, I realized that I had envisioned this path before. I had seen it. A few months ago I had envisioned three paths before me, to my left was one path and there was someone in front of it looking at me, to my right another path with a different person standing in front of it looking at me and then there was a middle path that no one was in front of. The path I saw was dark and light all at the same time. It had trees and it looked mysterious. When I had this vision I made a choice to go down the middle path. I wanted to to go down the path with no one in front of it, and I needed to do this for myself. Not for anyone else but me. I could not believe that I had found the middle path! It actually existed! As I continued walking down this path I found myself looking up to the sky, looking for some kind of answer as to why I felt so strongly to go to Boston.. and then as if the Angels had heard me I saw it. I saw the sun, I saw the water, I saw this view that was just so breathtaking I couldn't help but cry. I was not crying out of sadness, but out of joy. Pure joy. I felt myself open up in a way I haven't been able to open up. I felt a cleanse. I felt like my heart was opening back up. I felt my whole soul being cleaned of the toxins, of all the lies of all the betrayal. I found myself being so thankful that I had gone through what I had gone through because it all led me to THAT moment. I needed THAT moment. I found myself thanking every single person that was a part of the lies. I found myself in a new light. I was finally seeing clearly and I was finally gaining perspective. I just stayed for a good hour watching the sun set on the water. I just stood there in awe of the view. I rarely cry at views, but I could not take my eyes off of this one. It was so beautiful. I felt beautiful. The whole experience was simply beautiful.
     I eventually left the moment, because all moments must come to an end at some point, but that feeling has not left me. I carried it with me during my last days in Boston and I am still carrying it with me as I travel to New York. I am so happy that I followed my instincts and took this trip. I am so thankful that my heart feels like it is finally trusting again and opening up in a new way. I am just so happy. 
    I wanted to share this story on here because I feel like I have been really open and honest about my journey thus far. If anything, I have realized that we all have daily struggles, we all have things that happen to us, bad or good. We all go through pain at one point. I want to share my journey because I want everyone to know that there will always be light at the end of a dark unknown. There will always be silver lining. Follow your gut. Trust your instincts. Keep your curiosity fresh. Never stop learning. 
    The Boston part of my adventure is over, I am so grateful that I found my path and my view. I will never forget it. Alright New York... let's see what you have to offer!