Ride on the ocean of life

     Today is a rough day for some reason. I keep crying! I miss my Nanny and my Grandpa George. Sometimes I still can't wrap my head around the fact that both of them are gone. The two of them were so constant in my life for so long, it is almost unimaginable that two of my constants are not here anymore. What do you do when something so constant in your life fades away. It is almost the same feeling you get when you lose a friendship or when a romantic relationship ends. You feel this overall feeling of loss and helplessness; you are aware that you need to move forward, but you do not know where to begin. Take it from a girl who has lost plenty of friendships and who has dealt with major heart brake and who has had family members die, it is best to just take one day at a time. Even one moment at a time because one minute you will think you are doing fine, but the next you could be balling your eyes out! 

    Life is much like the ocean, the waves come and and go out and it is our job to ride on the ocean of life. Some days the current could be moving fast and other days the current could be as calm as a beautiful sunrise. You have to pull from your experiences to help you get through certain life problems sometimes. 

   With Thanksgiving fast approaching, I am struck with the memory of last year at this time when my Grandpa was living his final days. I remember feeling so happy for him when he finally was able to let go, and I remember feeling so unbelievably grateful for my family. We all stuck right by him until his final moments and I will never forget the love I felt for all of them that night. I often wonder if your death day up in heaven in much like your birthday here on earth. I wonder if the angels celebrate your return "home." I like that thought, so I hope that they do that, it makes an anniversary of a death seem not so sad here on earth. 

    Life is a whirlwind, and I am not even sure what I just wrote here, but it feels nice to get my words out. I hope all of you have a marvelous Thanksgiving and that you are able to have a chance to go around the table and say what you are thankful for. It is really important to get those thoughts in your head and to say them out loud.