Monday, December 29, 2014

Thanks 2014...

Dear 2014,
   You really were wonderful. When I look back on the goals I set out for myself last year at this time, I feel very proud of myself and all that I accomplished. I remember really hoping that I would be able to open up my heart again and find that trust again that had been shattered in the past. I decided that I wanted to say "yes" more and I wanted to continue to spread light to those I encounter. As I look back on my year, I feel that I really was able to do all that I set out to do. Well… I still want to go skydiving… but I will add that on my list for 2015… one day it will happen. But, I really was able to open up my heart again, and thanks to the love in my life I feel like I was able to actually find that trust again. It feels so fantastic being able to experience love on the level that I am experiencing it now.It truly is magical. I also feel that the term YOLO (you only live once) really became a huge part of my 2014 year. It really helped me be able to say "yes" to more adventures and I was able to experience more! 
    As I sit here, I am trying to figure out what I want to do for my 2015 year. It's hard to look at yourself and decide what realistically needs changing or what needs work. I do not want to pick things that are too challenging, but I also want to continue growing and developing as a human. I think what I really want to work on is learning how to be with myself again. I find that I am surrounded by a lot of people every single day, and I am so used to seeing so many faces that when I have those rare moments by myself, I do not know what to do. I either feel sad for being alone, or just at a loss for what to do. I often feel like I need to be doing something, when really I need to remember that it is ok to just not do anything at times. Another goal I have for 2015 is to be more aware of the present moment. This is something that I have been working on for the past 25 years of life, but it doesn't hurt to keep working on it. It is SO easy for me to get carried away with my thoughts and get ahead of myself, which then in return makes me feel nervous and anxious. If I could just stay present and live in the moment then I think I would enjoy life even that much greater. 
      So, there is it… I want to learn how to be with myself again and I want to live presently. Oh.. and I want to skydive :). I feel very very very fortunate to live the life that I do, and I thank my lucky stars every single day for all the good and all the bad that has ever entered my life. Every little moment brought me to the life that I am living right now. I am grateful for this moment and I want to continue to be grateful for what surrounds me. 
     My heart is open and it is ready for more. I am looking forward to seeing what 2015 has in store. May it bring good health, present moments and happy tears and laughter!

love always,
Amanda Leigh
xoxo 

2015 BRING. IT. ON.


Believe that with your feelings and your work you are taking part in the greatest; the more strongly you cultivate this belief, the more will reality and the world go forth front it.
-Rainer Maria Rilke