It's been two years, and I cannot believe how different my life is and how different I am. I feel stronger and I am now in a relationship that fuels me, it fuels my light, it does not take any light away. It feels good to be independent and in charge of my life. It feels good to have found a best friend in a partner and to have it be a positive experience. It feels good to work in an environment where I am around my family and friends every single day. I truly do feel very blessed.
I still have visions of the past, I still hear broken promises and hear the lies that were said to me to hide what was going on. I still feel anger, I still feel the hurt that I felt on that day. I still can sometimes feel the unwanted feeling my old self had felt on a daily basis. I could relive that moment over and over again in my head and the feelings all remain so fresh.
I cannot dwell on what was, and I don't. I see my life as it is right now, and I see how lucky I am, but it doesn't change the fact that it did happen and that I will probably be affected by it in one way or another my entire life. It is a part of me. It is my story and my journey.
Two years is a long time, and I am grateful for the lessons I have learned over these years. I know now what it means to be respected and to have that same respect for myself. I plan to continue to grow. I plan to take my story and continue to use it to help others. No one should be in a situation that makes them uncomfortable. No one should make themselves sick over a situation they feel stuck in. No one should ever feel stuck. If you feel at all stuck or if you feel like the life that you're living is not the life you imagined, then please know you have the power to walk away and start the life you have been dreaming of. It's YOUR life! Do not waste it!!!
Cheers to another year of growth!
