These questions have been in my thoughts a lot as of late, and today they seemed more relevant than ever. It always amazes me how connected we are as human beings. If you really stop and pay attention you'll notice that similar things happen to people around you and at the same time. Or a domino affect will occur and suddenly your morning coffee spill turns into you being late for work and ends with a fight with someone you love... and so on and so forth. We are all connected. We all have experienced those days when everyone seems a bit "off." Or certain energies just feel strange to you. We've all been there.
So, why is it that when we are going through a hard time we feel the most alone?
It has almost been one year since my life changed for the better. I cannot believe that it has almost been a year. So much has happened and changed in such a short period of time. It honestly feels like a lifetime ago. I reactivated my old facebook account the other day so I could get some old pictures, and I was amazed at my old life. I honestly did not even recognize it. I was overcome with this amazing feeling of strength and acceptance and power. I knew that the person I was starring at in those pictures was not me. I was so happy to see that I had found me. It took a tragic event to help me find me again, but I am so glad that I have returned.
When I think back on the events that have occurred in this past year, I can honestly say that my family and I would have not gotten through it without the love and support of people around us. I am fully aware of the negative things that are said around the situation, but in this case, there has been so much positive, that the light shines out the darkness. The truth will always find a way to shine brightly.
I find myself observing the world around me, just watching how people react to situations. The truth is, life is not all sunshine and rainbows, but you can surely try and create a world full honesty, truth, acceptance, strength and courage. It is about how we decide to deal with the things that happen to us that matter and make a difference.
Life is really hard, and today it became really apparent to me that we are all connected. I find this thought comforting because it is nice to know that if you are going through a hard time, so is someone else, and there is someone else out there in the world that has felt the emotion that you are feeling in that moment at some point. It is nice to know that you are not alone, and it is nice to know that we all have that inner light inside of us that we can shine as bright as we want to at anytime. We often forget about that light, but we all have it. I just recently rediscovered mine, and it has brought me to some amazing people and has helped me through some pretty tough times.
I am still working on my story. We all are. And who knows if our story is every really complete, but I know that I want my story to be full of adventure. I want to take risks and be vulnerable. I want to express exactly how I am feeling to the people I need to. I want to not be afraid of loss. I want to embrace life. I want to take it, and just live it to the absolute fullest, because who knows what tomorrow will bring? All we have is today really. Let's live for today. Trust yourself.
So to answer my questions, when I feel like the world is crashing down around me and I don't know how to pick up the pieces and am at a loss of where to start, I close my eyes, take a deep breath and find the strength and trust within myself to continue. I put trust in the path in front of me and hold my inner strength close by like an old friend. I throw my arms up in the air and surrender to what is and put faith into what will be.
"Faith, trust and a little pixie dust" can get you very far.
