"Loving ourselves through the process of owning our own story is the bravest thing we'll ever do."
- Brene Brown
You know what fascinates me so much? The idea of Time. I think the song, Corner of the Sky from the musical Pippin describes it best when it says, "everything has its season, everything has its time." Timing is truly everything. You may think you're ready for something and in that moment it may seem so clear, but then something will stop you, or something won't go the way you planned and then you will be forced to go down a different path and discover new things about yourself and the life around you. I often think of this "thing" that stops you as something magical. It just amazes me how when things don't go our way it really does end up being for the better. I have been thinking a lot about the timing of things and how these past 10 months, I have been more aware of myself and what direction my life is headed. I have thought a lot about my story and how I am just a small part of the story. This story also belongs to many people. It is truly our story. I only know what I know from my story, and that is the story that I want and need to tell. I believe that I can maybe help other people that go through heartbreak. I know I am here on this earth to be a teacher, maybe not in a classroom teaching, but a teacher of life. I feel that I am meant to learn and that take what I have learned from life's curve balls and teach my lessons to others. Why not dive into the deep end of life? Why not break your walls down and LIVE and LOVE. Why be scared of love? There's always a chance that you will get hurt, but it's almost fear that makes us stop the love from happening. I have worked too hard to not be fearful, and yet I find myself with this wall in front of me that I have single handedly built up brick by brick being fearful of falling in love again.
I know, I know.. I hear it all the time, "you have to love yourself before you can love someone," or my favorite, " take your time, you're young! You have so much time." Well, there's that word again! TIME. Well, you know what Mr. Time?! I do love myself, I really do. I am enjoying my TIME and I find myself ready to jump into the deep end of life. I am ready to open myself up again. My heart feels ready to love. I almost feel like I have been keeping my heart protected and treating it like a newborn baby... but now this heart baby is ready to walk. I can't be afraid of love anymore. I just can't. I want too much out of life to be kept fearful of what might happen if I were to open my heart up again.
I want to keep owning my story. I think it is important to own something that is yours, something that happened to you. I feel like I am finally getting on the diving board and am jumping head first into this big pool of life. Im taking a chance, and heading into the deep end. Hopefully, time will be on my side.
I want to keep owning my story. I think it is important to own something that is yours, something that happened to you. I feel like I am finally getting on the diving board and am jumping head first into this big pool of life. Im taking a chance, and heading into the deep end. Hopefully, time will be on my side.
