I always know when it is time to write something new. Today is a day that I feel the desire to write more than ever. I feel like the truth is finally out. All this time, for the past 7 months, I have always felt this sense of not knowing. Ever since November 3rd, each day has been filled with this unsettled feeling. "What will today bring?" "What new information will we learn today?" "How will I test my strength today?" But today, today I finally see some light at the end of this dark tunnel.
It is really hard for me to put into words my jouney and my story these past 7 months, but I am going to try. I have gone from a puddle on the ground to a very strong ray of sunshine in just a matter of months. The day when I was told of the news of Jason I was shocked, stunned I had no idea what I was going to do; how I was going to "survive." It soon became clear to me that I needed a better life for myself. I was hit like a ton of bricks. I finally got it. It was a clear "aha" moment. I knew that my life was worth more than what I was living and I deserved so much more respect in a partner and in a friend. I made a decision to end things with him shortly after the 3rd and decided to live my life from that moment moving onward and upward. I honestly have never looked back since.
Life moved forward from that moment on. I became nothing more than a girl with a stronger heart. The New Year came and went and so did the publicity. What is interesting is that the lies and truth get so misconstrued at times and the line drawn between a truth and a lie is always too closley blurred when it comes to the news.. but we got passed it. As a team, my family and I moved forward.
On March 22nd while I was on my solo adventure trip in Boston we learned more information to our story and ever since that day it has been a constant fight for the truth. 11 weeks ago all of our lives changed again, but this time the change was different. All of a sudden we were faced with having to practice patience and trust. We had to find our inner faith and surrender in some way to what was and pray for what would be. We had to fight for what we knew was right. It took 11 weeks, but I am so happy to say the truth did infact prevail. Good conquered evil. The books are placed back onto their rightful spots on the shelf. Life is good. We got through it. As a team. As a family. As a packaged deal. We did it.
As I write this post I am overcome with so many different emotions. I feel free. I feel like I just climbed the steepest mountain in the world. I feel like I am on top of the steep mountain looking at the beautiful view that we all have been waiting for. We climbed the mountain together. As a team. I want to say thank you to everyone who prayed. To everyone who sent letters. To everyone who showed love. I say thank you.
The truth wins. The light always shines. Good conquers evil. I know that there will be more hard times to come in my lifetime, but I am so happy to say that right now, in this moment, all is good. The view from the top of the mountain is beautiful.
